If God has called you to be really like Jesus He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility, and put upon you such demands of obedience, that you will not be able to follow other people, or measure yourself by other Christians, and in many ways He will seem to let other people do things which He will not let you do.
Other Christians and ministers who seem very religious
and useful, may push themselves, pull wires, and work schemes to carry out their
plans, but you cannot do it, and if you attempt it, you will meet with such
failure and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent.
Others may boast of themselves, of their work, of their
successes, of their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any
such thing, and if you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification
that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.
Others may be allowed to succeed in making money, or may have a legacy left to them, but it is likely God will keep you poor, because He wants you to have something far better than gold, namely, a helpless dependence upon Him, that He may have the privilege of supplying your needs day by day out of an unseen treasury.
The Lord may let others be honored and put forward, and
keep you hidden in obscurity, because He wants to produce some choice fragrant
fruit for His coming glory, which can only be produced in the shade.
He may let others be great, but keep you small.
He may let others do a work for Him and get the credit for it, but He
will make you work and toil on without knowing how much you are doing; and then
to make your work still more precious He may let others get credit for the work
which you have done, and thus make YOUR REWARD TEN TIMES GREATER WHEN JESUS
The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch over you, with a
jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words and feelings or for wasting
your time, which other Christians never feel distressed over. So make up your
mind that God is an Infinitely Sovereign Being, and has a right to do as He
pleases with His own. He may not
explain to you a thousand things which puzzle your reason in His dealings with
you, but if you absolutely sell yourself to
be His love slave, He will wrap you up in Jealous Love, and bestow upon you many blessings which come only to those who are in the inner circle.
Settle it forever, then that you are to DEAL DIRECTLY WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT, and that He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue, or chaining your hand, or closing your eyes, in ways that He does not seem to use with others. Now, when you are so possessed with the living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and delighted over this PECULIAR, PERSONAL, PRIVATE, JEALOUS GUARDIANSHIP AND MANAGEMENT OF THE HOLY SPIRIT OVER YOUR LIFE, then you will have found the vestibule of Heaven.
(-from Faith, Prayer, & Tract League:Tract #76; Grand Rapids, MI 49504)